Mirror

There is a song by Barlowgirl called "Mirror". This song has spoke to me in many different ways. So often I found/find that I compare myself to other girls around me. When I do this I find myself feeling like I am not good enough, nor pretty enough. I would rely on the mirror to base my value off of. However, this led me down the path of self hate and I could not accept when someone would tell me that I was beautiful. Because, for so long I had compared myself to others I saw in the magazines, the TV, or just other girls around me. I had told myself for SO long that I wasn't beautiful that what I started seeing in the mirror was a "monster". I would try to avoid the mirror or not look in surfaces that would show my reflection. I believed the lies that were being whispered to me. I went on believing that all the lies I had heard or told myself over the years were the truth. Then one day, God spoke through the darkness of self hate. He told me: "I love you my beloved, I do not make junk. I have made you just the way you are, you are beautiful in my sight." And then I heard the song mirror by Barlowgirl and it brought me to my knees. For through the eyes of the world I may not have the beauty that they look for. But in my LORD I have beauty beyond all comparison. He has been showing me over the past three years the beauty that was within me all this time. The beauty that I would not allow myself to see. Through my God's word (the Bible) and just calling upon the name of my Lord. I have felt the chains fall! There are still times that I find myself believing the lies being whispered to me... I am now able to discern that they are lies and I am loved by the best my God. I don't need the worlds approval to make me beautiful, I already am because my God created me within my mothers womb. He has had a part of every part of my life... therefore I am beautiful. The mirror is not what defines me and it does not define you either. God the great I AM is who what defines me! We don't have to follow the way of the world... what GREAT news is this!

Here is a verse that God has given me time and time again:

Psalm 139

Search Me, O God, and Know My Heart

To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

¹ O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
² You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
³ You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
⁴ Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
⁵ You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.

⁷ Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
⁸ If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
⁹ If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
¹⁰ even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,"
¹² even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.

¹³ For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
¹⁴ I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
¹⁶ Your eyes saw my unformed substance;in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.

¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
¹⁸ If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.

¹⁹ Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
²⁰ They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain!
²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
²² I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
²⁴ And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!

I would like to now share the song that God used SO many times to speak "You are beautiful my beloved." I am His beloved! Remember to take ever thought captive and make if fully obedient to God.